Baby. Maybe?

Alright, I wasn't going to post anything til we knew for sure, but since I'm going through this I thought I'd make all of you go through it as well. Muahaha. For those of you who don't care to read about ovulation and luteal periods, suffice it to say that I might be pregnant, check back in a week.


For those of you who have tried to conceive and found it a bit frustrating, this post is for you. Don't worry, I won't talk about the actual conception!

To start off, I've taken two tests. The first was a "spontaneous, middle of the afternoon test that I didn't expect to come back positive...But what if it does" type test. It was negative. Because I definitely feel pregnant, and am even starting to look a little pregnant, I wasn't discouraged.

The second test I just took about 5 minutes ago because I took my last positive pregnancy test in the middle of the night and I figured it might be good luck. The results were infuriatingly inconclusive. The line telling me I did the test right came back with flying, vivid colors. The line telling me I was pregnant however came back so thin and light that if you blinked once you would have missed it. I had to call my husband in to make sure it actually existed and I wasn't just creating it with wishful thinking. It was the punyist mockery of a line I've ever seen.

So I'm taking that as a "maybe". A little more hope than had there been no line, but not much.

Here's a little back ground information to help my readers stay in the guessing game with me :)

1-I have the most erratic cycles imaginable. 33 days here 40 days there 20 days the next month, you get the idea. I NEVER know if I'm "late" so I pretty much test every month.

2-I have a handy dandy ovulation microscope that I use religiously so I know I at least hit the ovulation mark.

3- I feel pregnant and some of my old stretch marks seem to be gearing up for old times and making some new friends. Also the old reliable indications like peeing a whole lot and having breasts that turn magically to rock are also in full swing.

4- The first test I took with my son came back negative, and the second positive. However, at the time of the test I was pregnant with twins and it still took about a week from the first test to give positive results.

5- I'm spotting just a little bit, but did so with my son as well.

6- And here's the only bit of information working against me...Because of my erratic cycle, I always think I'm pregnant. So much so that it's a joke. This time however is noticeably different as evidenced by my husband actually agreeing with me.

Anyways, seasoned mommies what do you think? Am I going crazy or does that pathetic line and my returning stretchy friends mean there's a new member of the family? Whatever it means, you can all join me on the ride.

Oh yeah and one more piece of evidence...The picture above isn't from my actual test, I didn't think my line would photograph. So I went searching for a faint inconclusive pregnancy test image and found this one. It just happens to be the same brand of test that I used. Coincidence? I think not!