Pregnancy is Hard.

I was humbled by reading a comment in my last post by a woman who went through 4 very difficult pregnancies. I realized that my post was not at all sensitive to the fact that so many pregancies are very difficult.

I had a "sidelined" pregnancy that included 13 trips to the ER, 13 weeks of bedrest, and 7 weeks of hospital bed rest. I can not imagine how hard all of that would have been without the loving support of my husband.

My wish is to help all women going through pregnancy, complicated or not. I lost sight of that yesterday when reading the venom twoards children that some advocate. Thank you, Kathleen for helping me to regain sight of that goal.

You're Not an Incubator, but Your Mindset is Deplorable.

I am so sick of pro-choice women lamenting that mean pro-lifers see them only as walking incubators. I am so sick of the incessant whining about how hard pregnancy is, and how difficult it is to give a child up for adoption. I am sick to death of comments that bemoan the mental anguish that comes with adoption, while pretending that abortion is akin to a church cakewalk.

I am sick of having to justify life to people determined to kill. I am sick of having to sugar coat holding a newborn to those who would rather kill their child and be done with it.

There are so many good women in the world who are misled. I want to help them. I believe that they can be helped.

On the other hand there are so many heartless women who see only ME ME ME ME ME without a thought of anyone else. It is sickening.

Let's just be honest. We pay 300 dollars to have a doctor kill our child. There is nothing noble about that scenario. I am so sick of justifications. Abortion is wrong. It is wrong to kill your child. Wrong.

If you need help carrying your pregnancy to term, I'm ready and willing. If you need help finding housing, I'll do my best to put a roof over your head. If you want to moan and complain about how pregnancy makes your boobs saggy and your belly button poke out, please just leave.

There are good people who are pro-choice (l. I'm looking at you) I just haven't seen many of them out lately.

Walk America, March of Dimes, and Abortion

Most of the readers of my blog know that I am the mother of a preemie. My son was born with IUGR at 31 weeks. He is now a healthy, happy nearly two year old!

As a mother of a premature child, I naturally supported March of Dimes. They save babies! Right?

Well the answer is yes, and no.

They do amazing work to help give *some* children the chance of life. However, they are huge proponents of amniocentesis and are quick to support "options" when the results are not positive.

Therefore, I can not support the organization. If anyone knows of a pro-life organization that supports prematurity research I would be ecstatic. Until then, I must prayerfully consider where I put my money and my endorsement.

Mat. 21:21

Please pray in all faith for my husband's grandfather. He is in acute renal failure, and has a host of other problems. His name is Bill. He DOES NOT want to die. Pray without doubt for his healing.

21Jesus answered and said unto them, Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done.

22And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.

King James Version (KJV)

Pro-lifers Responsible for VT Shootings?

File this one under "shameless"

From "abortionclinicdays"

As I read the paper and watch my TV, trying to take in the tragedy that has befallen the students, parents and faculty of Virginia Tech, I am feeling sick and in shock. I also feel a huge fear for my children. I know and am reminded that I cannot protect them anywhere.

Maybe I am a conspiracy theorist, but I cannot help but look at the history of this kind of violence and link it directly back to the anti abortion movement.

They were the very first people to speak so hatefully and announce with pride their thoughts of justifiable homicide. They were the first to post doctors' pictures on the Internet advocating killing, admitting who they were, yet there was NO PUBLIC CONDEMNATION. Even so called religious people often beat around the bush refusing to say it was wrong or in fact said nothing at all.
So the anti-abortion faction commited arson, firebombed us, shot us and then one of them got brave enough to go out in broad daylight and shoot at 2 clinics (3?) in Boston. And evade the authorities for how long? One of them blew up a clinic killing a police officer and almost killing but maiming the nurse and what happened? Nothing!

The White House under President Reagan and the first Pres. Bush entertained Joe Scheidler as a guest, and and others I no longer remember who were certainly themselves early terrorists or advocates of terrorism. And still no public outcry.
Finally, after the same bomber planted a bomb in Atlanta during the Summer Olympics, this got some attention.

When the school shootings started, Columbine and the rest, where did people think these kids learned their hate and their skills and the belief that is was ok to kill people. What did anyone with an ounce of sense think would happen to a generation of young people who saw others turn their heads from violence because it was aimed at a select few. And it was controversial after all.

Of course, after 911, Domestic Terrorism was suddenly in the news. But in print or on the news no one mentioned that abortion providers have been living with terrorism for a long time. They pretended it was new. When the members of congress first started getting envelopes with possible anthrax in them, abortion providers already had booklets that the ATF had printed for handling anthrax threats in our clinics. Many of us had gone through that kind of terrorism years earlier. Yesterday's actions may have been by someone who is mentally ill but where did the example, the idea come from?
We are all responsible for putting an end to hate. Just last week some people still thought it was a fuss about nothing when hate talk against women athletes was allowed to continue. Even when the shock jock was eventually fired, there were still a lot of people who thought it was funny. Unless people of leadership and faith announce the connection and call for an end we as a nation are going to see ever more violence.

When a crazy man can stand outside my friend's clinic today and still say these hateful things and call himself a minister, a man of God, why doesn't the public rush to run his ass out of town. If we want to see these shootings end it has to start there, with people like this minister, because they are the ones who started it all.

I am sorry if I am ranting especially because many of you have also lived with this or something equally frightening or painful but I just needed to write it for me. My rage and pain do not feel lessened but somehow I feel stronger.
Thank you for listening to me.

I don't even know how to respond to this. I deplore prolife violence. I see it as wrong. Period.

This article, however, is beyond absurd. To implicate an entire ideology because a handful of people committed a crime is ridiculous. Isn't this the exact same "close-minded" thinking that liberals accuse conservatives of perpetuating when speaking about Muslims?

It is laughable that a mad man's shooting is *DIRECTLY* linked to anti-abortion violence. This is disgraceful and disrespectful to the families of the victims of the Virginia Tech mass murder.

Tethering political mudslinging to tragedy is the epitome of self-serving gain. Shame on this author for sinking to such low a level.

Pray! Virgina Tech Shooting

Pray! A gunman has killed at least 21 students and injured 21 more at Virginia Tech. The gunman has also died.

Update: The number of dead students has raised to 31.
Story

Please Pray! URGENT

Please Pray. A tornado touched down at the EXACT location my husband was meeting his boss. I havn't been able to get in touch with either of them. My good friends are also in the direct path of the storm.

PLEASE PRAY.

Edit:

He's safe!
My friends are safe!

Praise God and keep praying, we're not out of the woods yet.

Begging Them Not to Kill.

It gets so tiring trying to convince people not to kill their own children. How have we become this far gone?

When Evil becomes "Good".

" Safe. Legal. Rare." This was once the mantra of the pro-choice community. It was, and in many circles still is, a rallying cry of those who claim to be truly pro-choice. These qualifications on abortion acknowledged that though abortion is something "bad" that should be limited, it is necessary and thus should be safe.

It seems some members of the pro-choice community (such as the grandson of Margaret Sanger) have realized that to follow the SLR protocol, one must acknowledge that there is something undesirable about abortion. Thus, a new generation of pro-choice rhetoric was born. Instead of a tragedy comparable to gnawing off ones leg, abortion should be framed as an undisputed "good". Instead of a shameful heartbreak, abortion should be sold as a milestone. Instead of a massacre, it should be framed as humans overcoming evolution.

Don't believe me? Take a look at Alexander Sanger's book "Beyond Choice". Perhaps we should look upon this as a good thing because it breaks apart the ground of moral relativism. Of course, I don't think renaming evil is something to celebrate. I pray that the world is not deceived.

On Uncertainty and Blessing.

Sorry for my lack of posts of late. I've been dealing with some very strange reproductive issues that I wanted to straighten out before I told the world. It seems that answers may never be known, however, so I decided to post a quick summery.

As my older readers know, we have been trying to conceive for the past year. Up until now I have had no inkling of a pregnancy (though that didn't stop me from testing!). Last week I was 9 days late starting my period and had all the wonderful signs of pregnancy. I never had a positive pregnancy test, and they stopped abruptly when my period started so I thought little of it. Without being too graphic, it was not a normal cycle and I became worried.

Off to the doctor I went, and I was told that it was likely I had a very *very* early miscarriage, but that we would probably never know for sure because my hormones had surely fallen too low to detect.

Before all of this madness began I had made an appointment with an infertility specialist to see about my endometriosis so my doctor and I decided to wait until I saw the specialist to make any conclusive claims.

Today I saw the specialist who decided that an ultrasound would not be advisable at this point in my cycle. We're waiting until after I ovulate to get a general idea of what is going on with me. It seems I will never know for sure exactly what happened this month.

As much as this upsets me, I was amazed to find out just how blessed I was to find this doctor. I was skeptical at first because his office was full of birth control adds. I figured he was just another agnostic, liberal infertility doctor. I could not have been more wrong. He actually prayed with us! I don't know about you, but I've never had a doctor pray for me before. He then asked us about our church and told us about his. It takes some serious guts to evangelize to infertility patients who are NOT at a NFP practitioners office. I can not tell you how blessed I feel to have found a Christian doctor. I know that he is misled about birth control, but I truly believe that he is the right doctor for me. He prayed for God's will in our family which really gave me hope that he will follow God in providing for our care.

If anyone is looking for a new OB/Infertility specialist in the Ft. Worth area I can not recommend Dr. Snead enough. Of course I haven't actually started treatment so that might change ;). Thankfully, he wants to go with very conservative treatment and is not hormone happy. We're going to check my ovulation, hormone levels, tubes ect. and then look to very minimal intervention. He doesn't even want to go to laproscopy until we have a better idea of what is going on and have tried for three more months. I feel very confident that he will not be the type of doctor to shoot me up with all sorts of abortificiant hormones or IVF (not that we would go along with that plan if he were).

So please pray that we can have peace with whatever happened this month and that God will direct our doctor in our care and that His will be done.

Would you go back in time?

This is a short break from my series, but I was reading my new Above Rubies magazine (www.aboverubies.org) and I found mention of Simpler Times Village

It is

To be Built 2008 in Madison County Indiana

Simpler Times Village is an actual community that will be built in Madison County, Indiana in 2008. Can you imagine a storybook village in old world Europe? Have you ever traveled to Italy or Austria to see a community built before 1800? We are working to recreate such a place...

I can not tell you how many times I've wished that I could do something like this, go back to a simpler time. Of course, when the opportunity actually presents itself I have a few doubts. What do you think? Would you like to live in this type of community?