My Holden

Holden wanted to say "Hi". He is starting to be quite the personality!

My husband, Oliver

I realized that I never post about my wonderful husband. This is our wedding picture(I can't believe how different Oliver looks without facial hair!)

Anyways, a little about my wonderful husband. We met in highschool band. He played bassoon and I flute. During marching season he played clarinet which positioned him right behind me in the stands. We were friends only at school for the two years before he graduated.

After graduation, he started school at UT, but drove up to see me every weekend(3 1/2 hours one way!) We grew very close, and by December of my freshman year of college we were married!

When Oliver and I met I was a mess. I was very disillusioned with religion and God and had a lot of bitterness about life in general. Oliver and I used to talk a lot about our religious views(I Unitarian universalist, and him Pentecostal!) and I found myself captivated by his level of spiritual depth. From the second he told me about the Holy Ghost I was hungry for the baptism. I begged Oliver to pray for me in tongues, but he reminded me it wasn't something that he could turn on and off at whim.

One night, when I was particularly afraid, he prayed for me and I interpreted him! From that point forward he helped guide me back to God and to my eventual filling of the Holy Ghost. Oliver's steadfast faith has shown me God's miracles. When we got the news that we were miscarrying our son, Oliver prayed not that our pain be taken away, but rather that God bring him back. He fell back on scripture and had faith even when things seemed hopeless. While we did lose one child to a blighted ovum, they discovered a second that they had previously not seen. God continued our pregnancy and we have a beautiful son because of it. Oliver's faith and strength give me hope.

God bless my wonderful husband!

KCBI Dallas sponsors metroplex diaper drive for CPC's

Anyone in the DFW metroplex? If so head to your local Mardel's bookstore to donate diapers for prolife pregnancy groups! website

Update on Baby James

I just found out via the Special Delivery website (
here) That James will remain open for adoption past the June 30th deadline because there has been significant interest shown.

Applications will be reviewed on an individual basis as any children that have not received interest will need to be returned on Friday June 30, 2006. Currently James, Mary and Jordan will remain on our website as we have received significant interest.

Since I have not received any sort of further correspondence with World Adoptions, I take this to mean that another family is in the process of adopting him. While it saddens me that he will not be a part of our family, I am ecstatic that he is finding a family!

I'll keep you updated if I am contacted any further, but for now GREAT NEWS that he WILL find a family! Of course I encourage everyone to look into their hearts and see if any of these other children are calling to be a part of your family. Unlike James, they don't have much time!

UPDATE: Mica from World Adoptions called me and is sending me the information on exploaring James' adoption today! It looks like we could get to be his parents after all!

On baby James and other "special needs children" in China.

After seeing the cry for help regarding Baby JamesI took it upon myself to research the situation a bit further and see if there was any way possible we could help him. I emailed the adoption agency to request information on starting the process to adopt a special need child and mentioned James specifically. I realize that there is little chance we would ever be picked as adoptive parents given our age and financial status(though we do meet the most basic of income requirements listed) Though we are most defiantly in the place in our lives for another child, I am not sure an adoption agency would see our situation in that light. I felt deeply called to peruse this as far as I am allowed.

Pray for James and that he will find a family, and if it is to be, that he will find our family. Again, I realize this is further than far reaching, but as I said, I felt deeply called to at least TRY to adopt him. Perhaps my inquiry will show intent and allow him to stay open for adoption long enough for him to find the family he deserves.

During my inquiry into Baby James I noticed a very upsetting trend. The adoption service listing him handles many "special needs" children. That, of course, is not the problem . The problem is that many, perhaps most, of the "special needs" are things such as club feet or birthmarks. What bothers me is it seems to signal that parents "cast away" these children as "deformed" for minor cosmetic defects. Perhaps I am misreading the situation, but it is very disturbing that these children may live forever as orphans because of a (correctable!) club foot. I know it was naive of me to think differently, but I never realized the scope of "special needs" before. Pray for these children, and all the children. Praise God that their parents at the very least gave them life.

Birth control IS eugenics.

"One of the outstanding features of the present conference
is...That these two great movements, eugenics and birth control, have now
come together as almost indistinguishable."-Dr. Fairchild and the birth of Planned Parenthood.

y the late 1930s, growing public hostility meant eugenicists and birth
control groups could no longer afford to compete for the dwindling funds from
foundations and wealthy donors. As Gordon notes, "In 1938 rivalry in the
birth control movement was ended with the reunification of Sanger's friends
and enemies in the Birth Control Federation of America (BCFA)."[15]

In January 1940 the BCFA held its annual meeting in New York City. The title
of the symposium, "Race Building in a Democracy," showed little had changed.
The same title was given to a luncheon speech by Henry Fairchild, president
of the American Eugenics Society.

At that meeting, the eugenics movement, tainted by public hostility to their
Nazi-like ideologies, united with the birth controllers. In his speech Dr.
Fairchild noted, "One of the outstanding features of the present conference
is...That these two great movements, eugenics and birth control, have now
come together as almost indistinguishable."[16]

Planned Parenthood was the product of that union. The luncheon at which Dr.
Fairchild spoke also began the 1940 fund drive for "The Citizens Committee
for Planned Parenthood." Birth Control Review noted that the two events would
give "an unusually comprehensive portrayal of the Federation of today and
tomorrow."[l7]

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This essay leaves little question about the true nature of Planned Parenthood. Was there ever any doubt?

Did they deserve to die?

This is my maternal grandmother holding my son on his first birthday. My grandmother is a wonderful lady who has been through a lot in the past few years.

She sustained a massive head injury last fall and was in a coma for about 6 weeks. During that time whispers of taking her off life support most certainly circulated. Praise God my mother could see through the nonsense and allowed my grandmother to live.

She isn't 100% yet, but she is so full of life and hope. She will never be "the same" but I don't care. Her spirit remains wholly independent of her calculative abilities. I love my grandmother.

I'm sure you are all familiar with the story of my son, but suffice to say I was told many times to abort do to his likely disability.

Though they demonstrate different ends of the spectrum, both are affected by a culture that sees life as a gradient, and theirs as not worth living. We are made in the image of God, the world can rebuke the truth, but our essence remains. Regardless of our individual capacities, our lives are worth something. Pray for my grandmother and others like her who are being cast aside.

Do your REALLY think "pro-choice" doesn't mean "pro-abortion"

This is taken from a website of young men in response to a post from another young man who thinks his girlfriend may be pregnant. Oh, and the young man and his girlfriend are pro-life. (warning: Language)

Then your girlfriend is a complete and utter moron.

I know im extremely late with this, but it fucking KILLS me that anti-abortion douchbags like you and your girlfriend would bring a child into this world with no way to support it."scorpion"

Okay, is there any possible thing we can say/do to get you to abort the pregnancy if she is indeed pregnant? No offense, but by virtue of your circumstances, if this hypothetical pregnancy is carried to term, your child has a greater chance for being stunted emotionally and intellectually in life than if you actually planned to bring a child into the world, and that leads to greater chances of crime, unemployment, and/or substance abuse.

The "trauma" of abortion is nothing compared to what you will unleash upon yourselves and society by bringing an unwanted child into the world at this stage in your life. Please, don't do it."spacepope"

In short, we're not just saying abortion might be a good idea for their sake, but also for the child's sake. These are two people who clearly aren't ready for, well, much of anything, based on the level of understanding they have of their bodies, their morality, or the world."stromdotcom"

Hmm. Sounds like these people really respect "choice" doesn't it?

My son is the joy of my life

This is my favorite picture of my son. I love it because it reminds me that I will not get to look down on his little head for very long. Soon I will look up to him and the man he has become.

He started saying "No"(or shaking his head rather) a few days ago. My cousin told me this is when they realize they are no longer a part of their mommy. He is growing up already. I just pray that I can lead and guide him into a Godly man. I love my Holden.

Please help.

Come visit my store on CafePress!

This is a shameless plug for my(subpar)shop on cafe press. Our electric bill this month is about 500 dollars and I really don't know how we are going to pay it. I decided to put my mediocre artistic abilities to the test and see if I have any luck. All shirts are pro-life(duh) and feature my adorable son as my model.

If anyone is interested it would really help us out if we could get some business.

My shop-Please help!

Come visit my store on CafePress!

This is a shameless plug for my(subpar)shop on cafe press. Our electric bill this month is about 500 dollars and I really don't know how we are going to pay it. I decided to put my mediocre artistic abilities to the test and see if I have any luck. All shirts are pro-life(duh) and feature my adorable son as my model.

If anyone is interested it would really help us out if we could get some business.

My Dad

I don't talk about my dad very often because he wasn't really a part of my life growing up. My mother made sure of that. Her insistence on NEVER seeing my father always left me confused, but I assumed she had her reasons. I called my father about a year ago and talked to him for hours. A lot of the questions about my mother were answered as well as my plethora of questions about him.

Then I lost contact with him until yesterday. I don't know why I didn't call. I got busy, we moved...ect. I really wish I would have called. So right now I pledge that I will keep in contact with my father. My mother abandoned him, and he thought he was doing the right thing to respect her wishes and stay out of my life. I'm an adult now and I still don't understand my mother's reasoning. I doubt I ever will.

Quick Question

I have a quick question for all of my readers. Do you find the pink on pink to be hard to read? I've only had one person mention it, but if it's a problem I can write in black.

Let me know.

Makers of Abortion Pill send "Dr. Doctor" letter in 04. It's been 2 years and Planned Parenthood is STILL not following manufacturer guidelines.

Danco Lab. The makers of Mifeprex issued the following letter on November 15,2004 calling for a Black Box warning on it's product.

Danco Laboratories is providing you with information regarding Mifeprex® (mifepristone), indicated for non-surgical abortion in patients who are ≤ 49 days pregnant, dated from the first day of the last menstrual period (LMP). From September 2000, when Mifeprex* was approved in the United States for marketing, through September 2004, approximately 360,000 women have been treated with Mifeprex in the U.S. Whether you provide Mifeprex in your private practice, a womenÂ’s health clinic, or a hospital clinic setting, you should be aware of serious and sometimes fatal infections and bleeding that occur rarely following spontaneous (miscarriage), surgical and medical abortions, including following the use of Mifeprex, and childbirth. A high index of suspicion is needed for timely diagnosis and intervention in these patients. To communicate this new safety information, Danco Laboratories has updated the BOXED WARNING and WARNINGS sections of the Prescribing Information as well as the MEDICATION GUIDE and the PATIENT AGREEMENT. Additional information is provided on ectopic pregnancy, which is a contraindication for Mifeprex (see WARNINGS). Copies of the updated Prescribing Information, which includes the MEDICATION GUIDE and the PATIENT AGREEMENT, are enclosed, and it is important for you to read them carefully. A summary of
the updated warnings follows:
Infection and Sepsis In postmarketing experience following the use of Mifeprex and misoprostol, we have received a few reports of cases of serious bacterial infection, including very rare cases of fatal septic shock (see WARNINGS). No causal relationship between these events and the use of Mifeprex and misoprostol has been established. Although infection following medical abortion is rare, we ask that you be alert to the possibility of infection in your patients. In particular, a sustained fever of 100.4 degrees Fahrenheit or higher, severe abdominal pain, or pelvic tenderness in the days after taking Mifeprex and misoprostol may be an indication of infection. Atypical presentations of serious infection and sepsis, without fever, severe abdominal pain, or pelvic tenderness, but with significant leukocytosis, tachycardia, or hemoconcentration can occur. {Additionalnal warnings concerning bleeding and ectopic pregnancies}

The MEDICATION GUIDE and PATIENT AGREEMENT have also been updated to reflect the new
safety information. Each patient should receive a MEDICATION GUIDE from her health care provider before taking Mifeprex. Please advise patients to take their MEDICATION GUIDE with them if they visit an emergency room or another health care provider who did not prescribe Mifeprex, so that provider will be aware that the patient is undergoing a medical abortion.Health Warning(PDF)

Again, this letter was written almost 2 years ago. So let's start from the beginning. The letter CLEARLY states that this option is only availablele to "patients who are ≤ 49 days pregnant, dated from the first day of the last menstrual period (LMP)". Funny that planned parenthood's Medical Abortion Q&A states "medication abortion works up to 56 days after the last period begins. Apparentlyly the warning hasn't phased our eager abortionists!

Planned Parenthood reiterateses 3 times that 56 days is the cut off for this type of abortion. They, even after the uproar surrounding their improper prescribingng techniques, continue to go againstst a BOX WARNING and administer this drug a full 7 days past the "safe" date. Perhaps 7 days seems a silly thing to bicker over, but when the total prescribingng time is 49 days, 7 represents a significant amount of time.

So I ask you, does planned parenthood REALLY care about women? My bet is they bank on those 7 day stragglers to require a surgical abortion and thus see them as extra income. How have they gotten away with this for 2 years?

Funny

I just thought I'd share something I found rather funny.

Someone made a post denouncing the Bible as sexist. My rebuttal was various scripture.

The end result? The person saying "blah blah blah ect. It's not like I have the entire Bible memorized lol"


Why is it so hard for some people to say "I'm wrong"?

Mad world

Here's a scenario.

A 15 year old girl gets rapped at a party. Her parents don't believe her rape story and throw her out on the street. They tell her they want nothing to do with her. The only option she is given is to go live with her abusive uncle in Oklahoma and work to pay her rent. She is also diabetic and will likely suffer medical consequences from the pregnancy. Oh, and she's 4'8'' and weighs 95 pounds so her body will likely suffer greatly from the birth.

I think we've just established as close to the perfect prochoice anti-parental notification case we will ever find.

So examining this we have a seemingly hopeless situation that could be avoided if only the girl was allowed to obtain an abortion without having to tell her family. The girl did nothing wrong, so why should she suffer this horrid fate? If only she could kill her child she would be ok.

Second scenario.

A woman is at home lovingly pregnant. Her husband meanwhile has been sleeping around with various people and has knowingly infected his wife with HIV. She finds this out at a routine office visit. She is now so angry at her husband(and rightfully so) that she is disgusted by the presence of his child and feels as though she is being raped by the child she used to adore. Her turmoil can be greatly lessened (though,like the rape victim far from erased) if the child is taken and she has no ties to her adulterous husband.

We hear these types of arguments all the time. We are considered monsters if we state that the child is not to blame and can not be punished for the father's crime. This is true. But it's not so easy.

The woman is traumatized, the child is adding to her emotional turmoil. The father is free living it up in Las Vegas, not caring about the lives he destroyed. This situation goes far beyond the realm of "unwanted" to a new category of desperation.

It is perhaps akin to shooting the man who stepped on your foot and shooting the man who you find on top of your wife in your bed.(not in terms of fetal liability obviously, but in terms of perceived desperation) Neither are justifiable, and neither should be legally sanctioned. But there is certainly an element of understandable horror on the part of the betrayed man that equates well with the raped mother.

I know that rape is a divisive issue amongst even the prolife community. I really feel that murder can not be ordained no matter the circumstances. However, I think we often glaze over the issues. I know I have been guilty of that offense on more than one occasion.

For the pro-life movement to succeed we must see past simply the goal of ending abortions, to the hope of alleviating the horror that some pregnancies do inflict. Ignoring the problem will not make it go away. And though we know that all pregnancies are blessings, we can not let that fact stand on its own. In our perverse world, we must show hope not simply explain why killing is wrong.

On Broken Fasts

So I broke my fast on Saturday. I felt I wasn't fasting as I should be and felt I was acting more as a child grounded than a saint. I have decided that my fasts from now on will be far more private and understated than the grandiose fast I joined this past month.

I am not writing this to criticize those who follow grand fasts because I defiantly think they have a place. I can not understate the importance of a large prayer and fast. However, I have decided that this particular fast was not as much about God as it should have been for me(and the fact that there is even a question is evidence of my struggle).

So I'm back and hopefully closer to God, and pressing on in my relationship with our savior.